Settling for less was one thing I did very well.
Selling myself short; it wasn’t difficult to slip into character. I was the auctioneer, giving herself to the lowest bidder. Ironic error.
Why I did what I did, wasn’t hard to understand when considered– I didn’t like the attention or the criticism that so often came with being good, I began to lower my standards. I wanted to be under the radar. And, Oh! I did good.
I would finish dressing up for lectures and I would take a look at the mirror, beautiful! But, no way was I stepping out like that. I would change the cloth into something less admirable. So, I would become invisible per se. It crept into basic activities like this.
Or was it during conversations? I would be anything but the knowledgeable one. I may happen to know the solution to a presented problem, but I didn’t dare utter a word. I settled for making less meaningful conversations. I settled for talks that didn’t match my intelligence.
I remember one day, a friend saw one of my notes lying around. She picked it up and read a particular write-up, “wow!” She went. “This is beautiful!” She went on to ask me who wrote it. I told her I was the one and she just laughed it off. She didn’t believe me. Boy! Was I shocked? The write-up in question was just something I scribbled to pass time; I didn’t invest much time or energy even… and such wasn’t believed to even originate from me!!!
That was when I knew I was being plain stupid!
That was the point I began making conscious effort to pull my light from under the bushel. I began to live more! I invested in bettering myself and allowing Chisom to shine. I didn’t become tawdry nevertheless, I simply refused to settle for mediocrity
It’s a long walk to where God is taking me, I’m largely a work in progress.
I don’t know what your thought process has been before now. What I know is that till you believe in your abilities, you can’t improve.
You first have to believe there is something within you and that is what you get to work with.
If you don’t believe you can proffer solutions, you will see the challenges and pass… leaving yourself and the people around you, no better.
I’m advocating we all shine as light.
I’m suggesting we don’t hold back our input.
I’m encouraging us to create room for growth.
Let the water flow out; that way it becomes fresh water that gives life not a stagnant one… breeding death.
How often do we struggle with dust when the stars are up there for our reaching?
Right now, do me a favour. Look within, what do you need to change? What have you hidden your light under? Pull off the covers and shine! Let’s go ahead and be the best version of ourselves. Let the critics come at us! They will just be spurring us to growth.
I LOVE YOU!!!
Not as though I had already attained, either were already perfect: but I follow after, if that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended of Christ Jesus—–> Philippians 3:12.
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